Here Today, Then Gone to Vegas

The moment is at hand.




With about $1000 dollars into my polish-up-this-bitch fund, I have all the makeup, clothes and accessories. But am I ready?

I guess I have to be. I didn't lose as much as I wanted to by now, but I have lost enough to shock people who haven't seen me in a while. Visiting with lots of friends and family I only see once or twice a year, so I should get a good response.

I also tried on my outfits to show my husband yesterday and on a couple of them I saw that look in his eye that I missed so much. It was that unmistakable look of lust. He also said he liked the dresses and that I looked so much better and would be perfect if I could just get 20 more lbs off. I say 30, but that's not the point. In fact, words aren't the point at all. The eyes don't lie. And his eyes said that I'm on the right track. The look flashed across his face twice. I remember when it used to be there 24/7. So I'm no where near my goal, but it is a really good feeling to know I'm headed the right direction and that it's working.

AND and and! He didn't even initially like the dresses. That means that they looked good on me specifically.

Also! (can you tell I'm excited? hehehehehe) I've been wearing makeup which I almost NEVER do, but I needed to practice for the trip. And when we were in a grocery store Saturday night stocking up on drinks for a party (which I later had a great time at and drank way too much) my sister Mei told me that my skin looked amazing and what did I do to look so pretty! :) XD Yay!! This is the gorgeous sister who is also incredible with makeup and is super skinny btw. She said she couldn't even tell that it was makeup! haha!

So I'm thrilled. I look like shit to me, but will appear MUCH thinner to others, have lost enough to have some of a waist line, and due to weight loss and makeup practice will have a pretty face. My hair is light and streaky blond. And it really doesn't hurt to be 6 feet tall in low heels.

I'm glad I get to hit Vegas with confidence... which is the sexiest quality of all.

I'd thank God if I was religious! Instead I'll thank you guys! Thank you! I love all of you. Without you, none of this would be possible. I'd still be as lost as I've been for years. We've done so much together, and will continue to. Every blog I read, every comment I read on my blog or someone else's, every tweet and post, every single name I follow or who follows me... We do all this together. hehe I could cry. God I'm such a sappy loser... hehehehe But really. No one else could possibly understand... not any of this. But we do. So I'll try not to feel lame for gushing my love and appreciation at you guys. I'm not that kind of person but all this is so different and can be such a mercilessly cold place when you're alone. I have a feeling you know what I mean.

Comments!

Kazehana - You are so right. You've already got her out classed and when you put it that way. That extra info sheds more light on your post too. hehehe You two looking like sisters is probably the sweetest justice. :) You definitely don't seem to have much to prove to her anymore.

Ariadne - In response to your comment on What a Wonderful World... That is a really good way of looking at it. :) Glad you liked the post.

Rio - I'm glad you got to check out those youtube vids. I am completely addicted to before and after pics and vids. They are the greatest thinspo to me.